Today's Gratitude List

8.03am Sunday

Thank you dear life for another day

Thank you Autumn, your fog that hovers

Thank you morning, your streaming light

Thank you cold, your under bite exhilarates

Thank you bike, with you I glide

Thank you gravity, you keep me grounded

Thank you dreams, without you I'm a goner

Thank you faith, why I stay

Thank you time, for bamboozlement

Thank you stone, your smell a constant reminder

Thank you camera, chamber of beauty

Thank you vision, you keep me moving

Thank you everything i cannot see.

Not having Kittens

L came out after I did.
Well, I'm the oldest, so it goes without saying really.
L came out after I did.
Thing is though, L was a girl as a girl, and I was a tomboy as a girl. So years later, when Mum commented on how 'unnatural' it was for two teenage girls (M and me), to be lying in bed together at eleven in the morning, she already knew the word 'unnatural' was merely a palatable replacement for the word lesbian.



I left home shortly after that, to escape the increasingly heavy iron fist of my dad, and to pursue my lust for all things lesbian. A wee while after I left home, my sister was given an ultimatum by my Dad on his discovery of a sports bag containing dildos, strap-ons and several thumbed explicit queer magazines found not-so-firmly stashed in L's closet. The ultimatum was this;
'IF YOU WANT TO LIVE UNDER MY ROOF,
YOU WILL ABIDE BY MY RULES.'
With that, L left.
She was fifteen.



Turned out the stuff didn't even belong to L, she was merely minding it for a friend, who was not a lesbian, but a homosexual. Which is by-the-by and neither here nor there. Still, the exposure was glaring, and she had now entered the fold.
A self confessed lezzo.
Several'same sex' relationships, houses, dogs, cats, kittens, cars, biscuits and cups o tea later, L jumped the fence for a Mister MacDonald from Oz. Oz came to Scotland. L got knocked-up, then hitched-up. Her baby due to arrive on June 27th.
I wish you well my lovely L
and can hardly believe what is happening,
but believe it never-the-less.

what on earth is going on now?

I no longer understand anything at all.